The pitfalls of life. The self esteem, health, trust and what have you of the recovery star points doesn't cover the disjointed logic of care. After everything long gone after, it will come eventually too. And we will all stand to judgement if that is what awaits at the often spouted preaching .... 

At least the long wait of something came to fruition. I am one third through the minimum of the time yo give, which is more than can be said of much that came to little or failed to learn ... 

It tis early days of how it will be. The struggle to accustom to much at the same time ... it takes huge effort to propel myself forward without looking back now. I take the did I do alright? on to the next stage and adjust accordingly ... 

It is remembering names, codes, directives. Policies. And no question is the wrong question. And then back to the past with looking forward ...  resting up. The pacing that still comes and goes. The find in this serenity of how life is ... enjoying the movement again of activities out of the environment is still momentous